AUTHOR: Sara TITLE: Monthly Drama DATE: 3/19/2005 08:35:00 PM ----- BODY:

I have been hesitating about posting this just because I don't really want to think about it any more than I already have. But I have done okay today keeping myself busy, BBQing with my husband and a co-worker of mine who is staying at our house and watching our dear dog when we leave on Monday. So, as you know, my cycle this month is screwed up. At first, I thought it would just be a cycle I didn't ovulate, but I think I did. I was using the OPKs at a different time, and if you read previously, I think I missed the surge. I had a lot of "almost" surges, and then it went away. And for another week of so, I had not even the faintest hint of a test line, so I don't think I ovulated on Day 17, as some of you thought. My dear friend, who found me through the blogging world, but does not have a blog herself (sniffle) said she didn't think you could ovulate without a surge. So, I moved my crosshairs on my chart from Day 17 to Day 11. Now, yes, I had a touch of spotting on Day 17, and when I say a touch, I mean it looked like I accidently dropped a marker on my underwear. It was basically and literally a brown spot. I had a much smaller one on Day 18 in the midst of all of the adundance of creamy CM I have had this month. Ovulatory spotting? Hmm, never spot between periods, so I don't think so. While my temps are still on the up-track, I just don't know. My chest hurts, a lot matter of fact, but I also was stupid enough to play soccer with my kids on Friday without wearing a sports bra. They are sensitive and full, but most likely a fluke I created myself. And this morning, I decided to pee on an evil stick. I used a leftover First Response test from last month. It is still early, as I think I am only 11 dpo, but sometimes the urge is too much to resist. While I did not see a second line within three minutes, I saw the hint of something. I am chalking it up to an evaporation line, because it was not pink, but when turned in the appropriate light, it was noticeable. Just enough of a presence to piss me off, if that makes sense. I googled evaporation lines and by description, I am thinking that has got to be what it is. So, Spring Break has begun here and we leave Monday for San Francisco. We are stopping in Half Moon Bay to see my friend Jenn, who had a baby today. And we are just going to relax. I don't think I am going to test again because I think while the possibility exists that I am pregnant, I just don't want to think about it anymore for the next week. I am due to start my period Wednesday or Thursday, so I am going to try and wait and see. Any thoughts? I'm off to finish a book and settle in for the evening. I will try to post once more before we leave on Monday morning. And I received the e-mail today - my fertility monitor is somewhere in a mail-bin in the Midwest now. Does anyone know if AF comes while I am on vacation, can I start using the monitor on Day 2 or 3 when I return or does it have to be Day 1?

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