AUTHOR: Sara TITLE: I'm Back! DATE: 3/25/2005 03:52:00 PM ----- BODY:

Our trip was really wonderful. We got to do a lot of the touristy things I have never done while visiting the Bay Area and we ate some amazingly great food. Our hotel, which I had stayed in about five years ago, is one of the four "Personality Hotels" that are designed by keeping colors in mind of what emotions it can make you feel. Our floor was the "Mind" floor, so it had lots of grays and tans and blues. The hotel also had a meditation/yoga room which I spent some time in the evenings at, trying to just clear my mind of all that pollutes it these days. I will try to post some pictures in the next few days. On the reproductive front, I thought that I would know by now what the hell my body is doing. Let me just say this now, despite of what a fool I will most likely look like in a few days when I discover I am wrong, but I really think I am pregnant. I say this because this is the first time I have had every single symptom (and some other interesting things) that I had in my last pregnancy. Despite trying not to dwell on it over the past few days, I did some calculations on the way back into town today, and if I did ovulate later than I thought, since the OPKs this month were like trying to read Latin, then that could be why I am still testing negative. Observe my chart, if you wish. I think it looks like a textbook, or as close to textbook as you can get, to a triphasic chart. Now, I kind of thought I had O'ed on Day 11. Eh, maybe not, maybe on Day 17, which would either make me 17 DPO or 11 DPO. When previously pregnant, I was so angry that I kept getting negatives because I was convinced I was pregnant. My nipples hurt then and they hurt now. I have felt extremely light-headed over the past few days, too, and I am bloated like a life preserver. I am also currently on CD 28, where my cycles have been running about 25-26 days. So, I am going to hold off if I can until Sunday morning to test again. I am really at peace without whatever happens, I just want to know. The second night we were at the hotel, I discovered that our hotel had wireless internet access, so I (very quietly, while Mike was sleeping) checked your blogs. I am about a day behind now, so I am off to catch-up. Hope everyone is doing well!

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