AUTHOR: Sara TITLE: New Doctor . . . . New Visitor DATE: 2/16/2005 08:56:00 PM ----- BODY:

I found a new high-risk OB that handles recurrent miscarriages. I gave up on Dr. Never-Call-Me-Back. I am in love with my regular OB, but he suggested I stay on with a perinatologist until I am 16 weeks (ha!) and then return to him. I cannot even imagine what that would feel like. I have an appointment with the new doc on Monday. I went and located all of the test results, echocardiograms, and genetic testing paperwork to take with me for the consultation. Now that I know more than I did three months ago, I know there are a few things I have not been tested for, which is surprising considering I have given enough blood to resupply the local blood bank. Plus, I just want someone to be really proactive in measuring my Progesterone levels, etc., when and if I do get pregnant again. I was talking to my Mom today about my upcoming appointment and mid-conversation, she told me that my brother's girlfriend reads my blog. I dropped the phone and nearly hit a bus. Huh? Did I send my blog address to my brother in a moment of brief insanity? My Mom has actually looked at it, but she does not frequent the page. She's private and no stranger to loss herself. However, she respects and understands my need to talk about it. So . . Holly, if you are reading this, hi dear. And Happy Birthday. :-) Take no offsense to my bitter moments or my truck-driver mouth. I am really a normal person outside of being fertility-challenged. I swear. (after a few minutes of thinking) Well, okay, I am not normal. But that's okay. Who wants to be normal? You are with my brother, so you must understand that. Ha! Okay, that came out wrong. I love my little brother and now the two of you are a package deal. Despite not having met you, I know we would get along magnificently. Just don't use anything I say here againist me, it is like a "free space" in the universe. Ladies, welcome Holly to the blogging community. She has not actually had my brother's child yet nor is she pregnant, so we can still enjoy her company. (just kidding again . . . ) Glad you are here, Holly. I really am. Does anyone else's family read their blog?

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