AUTHOR: Sara TITLE: Apparently, I am doing it all already DATE: 2/21/2005 06:08:00 PM ----- BODY:

Met today with Dr. Cool Attitude . . . . Basically, after reviewing my history and test results, he said very simply, "You are doing all you can do." I am taking the prescribed medication necessary to combat what "could have been" the problem, although he seems to think, as my regular OB said, that the MTHFR gene was probably not the culprit. My "million dollar bloodwork" shows no other worries and even though my chemical pregnancy was a loss to me, he basically said he still considers me as having only the one miscarriage I had last year. Smiling, he said, "It is great you are being so proactive and trying to prevent this from happening. But if I had every woman in my office that had only had one miscarriage, I would drive four new cars." It was a funny way of putting it, but it made sense. I know in my heart that there is a possibility I may not have anything to worry about. I just want to make sure. Dr. Cool Attitude also said that I can continue on with my regular OB once I do (hopefully) get pregnant again and that if I were to have more difficulties, then he could review other testing options. Suprisingly enough, he said that he is not a big fan of testing for "killer cells" or whether or not my antibodies fight off my dh's sperm or fetal tissue. And based on the OFFICE FULL of pregnant women he had, all discussing their own previous heartaches, I am just hoping against hope that I am one day sitting in their chair. As for now, just as 'Cat' said, I am done worrying about it. Actually, I am more than done. I was so exhausted after leaving his office this morning that I slept in the car as Mike drove us home. It just wears me out, thinking about what could happen and what might happen and what will happen. It is pretty much out of my control. It is easier said than done, but I can't worry anymore about something I can't change. As for my current stats, I am 7 dpo and on cd 21. My chart still looks pretty, but who the hell knows. As Mike said, if this is not our month, we are Irish and always manage to celebrate St. Patrick's Day in style. Maybe green beer and tavern-hopping is the key. *PS . . am I the only one addicted to this Discovery special Birth Day: Live?

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