AUTHOR: Sara TITLE: I Feel . . . "Off" DATE: 1/23/2005 06:05:00 PM ----- BODY:

I am sure this is not the first time in the infertile community you will hear this and I am sure it is not the last, but I feel . . . . strange. I have always liked to think that I know my body pretty well and I know when something is wrong, etc. For the past few days, I have been exhausted. Not just your run-of-the-mill tired, I mean pass-me-the-pillow-before-I-fall-on-my-face tired. I'm thinking it is either A) the Prometrium kicking in B) coming back from vacation and dealing with the lovely 4th graders C) the non-stop running around I have been doing having an effect on my energy level or D) ?? dare I say?? The thing is, last month throughout those last few weeks, I had some tiredness and I almost always felt it coming on within an hour of taking the Prometrium and the Foltx, both of which have side effects that include fatigue. But here's the kicker . . . I woke up this morning with little stingy shocks running all throughout my left breast. I thought, "Hmm, maybe I slept on the boob wrong." I went to work and did some copying and about 3pm, the other one kicked in. Like I said, strange . . . Now, during my last pregnancy, within DAYS (yes, DAYS!) of getting pregnant my nipples sort of took on their own personality. They were hard ALL THE TIME, much to the happiness of my husband. They also felt sore. I describe it like (forgive the ick! description) the skin felt raw, almost. Like when you cut yourself shaving and the skin is exposed and when the air hits it, it aches a little. Now, I am definitely not feeling that, but they are just . . . sore. God I hate this damn Prometrium. It messes everything up! So, I am a few days past ovulation (not totally sure yet because my chart has not drawn a cover line) and already I am eyeing the HPT for this weekend. I really hate what trying to conceive has done to my brain. Every ping, pang, every sensation that alerts you in some small way seems to turn on that sensor in your head that says, "What is this? Could I be pregnant? Is this how I felt last time? My mother says each pregnancy is so different, so maybe this is the difference. No, yes, no, maybe, no, no yes, ARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!" Just shoot me and put me out of my misery.

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